various adventures, only some of which have been fun

i have been quite busy lately with work...besides working as a tutor and the AD at the center, i'm teaching a few classes at night and helping my dad with his business, so this is my "crazy season" i guess. i wish i had time to get anything done around the house (there are still things on my spring cleaning list that haven't been crossed off yet)!
dh & i (plus his cousin) have found a sizeable bit of property in upstate ny and hope to purchase said property as soon as possible and begin building from the ground up. we'd ideally like to build a few houses plus a large "community center" with some classrooms and an auditorium, a bunkhouse or two and a few barns (this is a 2-5 year plan). dh would like to set up a charity music camp, giving guitars and lessons to kids who would otherwise never have had a chance to get that first exposure to music in memory of our Lilly, who he never had the chance to give her first guitar. we'll use some of the land for the camp and also for artist's and writer's retreats, as well as subsistence organic farming. this is what i've been wanting to do for quite some time now, so i'd better take the time now and hone my homemaking/gardening skills, since i'll be stuck out in the middle of nowhere with just some seeds and a plot of land (and i'll love every second of it). i just really don't know about the business aspect of all of this, but i guess that's why God gave me a husband, to take care of all of these things that i don't know anything about! i'm looking into the grant-writing and securing aspect of it, as well as how to get interns from the local SUNY to work for cheap!
work is absolutely killing me, but knowing that i have something to look forward to within the next few years really makes it all worth it.
still no news on the baby front. the doctors have been testing myself and dh for everything, and so far everything has come back normal. i've done the blood work, the thyroid test, the ultrasound, and i'm going for the HSG dye test on Tuesday and that will probably come back normal as well...i'm thinking that it's hormones, and i don't know how to have them test for that! but i have been pregnant before so the dr. just keeps telling me, oh, it's probably just timing. but it took so long the first time, i don't really want to hear tht it's just timing because i know better. but i don't want to tell them how to do their jobs, oh well. i just get so dismayed that i want to give up, but for dh's sake i won't. i just don't think that this is the right way to go about this at all. if it was meant to happen, it would.